My last post/whine was a snapshot of a very hopeful me. I was CONVINCED I was pregnant with the waiting period still ticking along. That changed quickly. Shortly after posting that I became convinced I was not pregnant. This was devastating – to the point I sat crying at my desk at work.
I came to terms with it though and yesterday took a home pregnancy test. It was negative. I could still be pregnant and it not show up yet – I am supposed to start my period on Wednesday so that will really tell me if I am or not. I still do not think I am. I feel no different – in fact, I feel better than I did in the first week after insemination.
This first round has been a rollercoaster of emotions. While I expect to not be pregnant I find myself fine with that. I feel ready to move to the next round as a calmer, more emotionally stable person.